some people gotta learn the hard way
I guess I'm the kinda guy that has to find out for myself
I had to learn the hard way, father
I'm on my knees and I'm crying for help.....
This is the beginning of a song that could have been my anthem in the late 80's and really I could apply it to almost anytime in my life. The thing that is so humbling about this is that I always believe I was above help. I am a man for crying out loud, I can do anything I just put my mind too. HA!!! It has taken a long time for me to be humbled to the fact I can't do anything on my own...
it took so long for me to see
that I'm a victim of nature and me
left to myself, I realize
I am the maker of my own demise....
but you accept me every time and again
and never mention just how selfish I've been
why must it always take me so long to see
that I have fallen, but you will forgive me..
I have been given a life full of challenges and failures of learning the hard ward, but for what I have asked. You see the older I get the more I get to share my experiences with people especially the younger men. God put an opportunity my way to share one of my hard way experiences with a young man this past week. Didn't really know him just felt the holy nudge and opened up in my Jeff way. Not sure what will come of it but I do know it was Gods work. I know now with out a doubt why I had to learn the hard way, because it was the only way God could mold me to "his form" of what I am suppose to be. The last piece of the song by D.C. Talk is so prophetic.....
the warning signs are like flares at night
still I proceed my greed is in spite
of a fire I know is bound to burn
why is it that I always have to learn....
........The Hard Way
Ecclesiastes 1
8 All things are wearisome, more than one can say.
The eye never has enough of seeing,
nor the ear its fill of hearing.
9 What has been will be again,
9 What has been will be again,
what has been done will be done again;
there is nothing new under the sun.
peace and thanks for listening....
